So that's what I'll do.

I spent too many hours, weeks and years beating myself up over things, complaining to myself, finding excuses, and worse, lying about my situation.

Yeah, I still have issues, tons of them especially now. But I don't have anyone to blame but myself.

The things I've thought of won't get me anywhere, and even if things aren't the best, I'm still "healthy". I'm still able-bodied. I'm not in trouble.

If I want to take care of myself and whoever is left, then the only way is forwards, with gusto. Not pity.

If I'm broken, I'll just have to fix myself, whether or not I do it alone.

If I didn't grow a single year after all, then I'll just have to start now.

I took my first step onto the path of accountability. I still need to take more accountability.

So that's what I'll do.

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